oh dear. Here I am again, sitting in front of my computer and completely wondering what scheme I'm going to end up following.
I mean, here's the truth: I love the scenery of the coasts and mountains and forests of Northern California. And I love the people and the places, the gold mining towns and the booming cities, the odd misfashionstas and the prim-tied conservative churchgoers. Northern California is a beautiful place, and the more of my friends that move back to its greens, yellows, blues and whites, the more concerned I become with the impending and temporary proposition I've been so set on for the past year and a half of moving away.
And so is my dilemma. (Hurray.) I have lovely people in my life right now, and I'm supposed to go away to LA at the end of the summer. Should I leave so soon? Is there never a choice that is easy? What am I supposed to do?!
Let's weigh the options. If I take myself away and find a more professional career, what am I losing and what am I gaining?
1 - I'm losing opportunities for making art and projects with great people
2 - I'm gaining opportunities for making money and art and projects with new great people
3 - I'm losing empty landscapes and beautiful country
4 - I'm gaining cities and strangers and new country
5 - I'm losing closeness with current family and friends
6 - I'm gaining new closeness with new friends and old friends gone away
7 - I'm losing familiarity and comfort
8 - I'm gaining new life-experiences
...this list could continue.
Maybe this is a moment to step back and wonder about how I can go about these things reasonably. I need help here. Someone give me fat direction. Or any advice would be GREAT.
love you
Mikie
2 comments:
it really is hard to say. your list seems pretty accurate. there is no real way to weigh the pros and cons because you can never really know what either way will bring until it happens. there is a lot of life to live and i think adventures are the grandest. trying out los angeles WITH candice would probably be very different than before. and you don't have to feel like you are losing "closeness" with family up here because it won't be that different from you living in santa cruz. darin and i are equally likely to come visit. anyway i just think that giving anything a chance is worth a lot and you have already tried living in northern california in so many ways. so i guess that is my advice. this does not preclude the fact that you could at any point change your mind and change your life. that is ALWAYS an option and the best thing to remember.
Mikie, today I took the DVD of 8 or 9 of your Disney commercials to have my mom and her visitors (niece Karen and her son Tom and his girlfriend, and Roberts first wife Jill and her daughter Marcie and her 2-13 year old daughters) to view. We watched them one at a time and I watched a very talented young man step into a venue that he is made for. Mikie, you are a performer and as much as I love having you close (just as I would love to have Matt and Amy and family closer) I think you ought to go full force toward utilizing/developing that talent even if it means being away from friends and family. Actually today’s electronic goodies make a few hundred miles seem like across the street. And besides, and most importantly, if you include the one you love, she is your BEST friend and will always be at your side supporting and encouraging you. I vote for you to seek your potential and trust that your family and friends will always be close by. Heather's message above is right on target. I love you Mikie
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